ughhhh

This shit is so much harder than I expected it to be. I am so depressed when are not around. So, tonight you are on boyfriend duty and it's driving me crazy. I wish that we could spend time together. But the reality of it all is that we will never be able to go out together and do normal things that couples do because you and I both are not supposed to be with one another. That means while you are out having fun with her on Friday night I am at home drinking Tequila and being extremely angry because my boyfriend is in the damn basement blasting reggae music. I want us to enjoy each others company. How much longer is this going to go on or how much longer am I going to stand for this. I so want to be with you but this girl on the side is not how it should be.